How I want a Guy to View Me

I'm going to be honest. Trying to get a guy to accept me is hard. I'm a bigger girl and I don't look like the average girl. I'm very different in my appearance. Finding a boyfriend has been a big struggle for me. I'm not actively looking by any means. But Guys usually are just never interested in me. A lot of guys end up viewing me as there "sister". Which honestly, That hurts a lot. Who wants to be in the friend zone? NOBODY. It is the worst feeling because you see all of these qualities you like in someone but they look at you as family and that's super hard. For me a Guy doesn't have to have anything special. What I see that is special is somebody who's driven, Who's got a job and a car and somebody who has the same interest's as me. Hygiene is important. But besides those things I could careless what he looks like. Of course there are guys that I'm attracted to but there usually the guys that will break my heart If I fall for them. The thing is, Guys all want the same thing. Brunette, Blonde, Red Head. Straight teeth, Skinny or Curvy and Great Personality. Yes there are girls that I'm completely jealous of. Because they could get any guy they want. But then I second guess myself. The person she's dating  or the guys that like her did they fall for her personality or did they fall for her looks ?  As a bigger girl I get that advantage. I get that advantage that okay, I may not look like all of the other girls. But If a guy falls for me, That means he looked at my heart instead of my outward appearance. That's what I want honestly. I don't want a guy to look at me and say "she's beautiful". I want a guy to talk to me and get to know me and then tell me I'm beautiful. I want a guy to see the good in my heart. I want a guy to see my heart as beautiful. I'll be praying for him and I'll be waiting for him. Whenever God decides to introduce him in my life, I'll be ready.  But to the girls who are struggling with this, YOU ARE A ONE OF A KIND GIRL. Just because your different doesn't mean you won't find love. There's true love out there for everybody. I truly believe that and I know it will come to each and everyone of us at the correct time. If your depressed because you can't find somebody to love you for you. Don't worry because there's a guy that's going to love EVERY inch of you and no matter what you look like you'll find him. Those guys that look at you and don't accept your appearance. Do NOT deserve you. & Ya know what? Those guys that won't accept your appearance will be complaining later that there getting treated badly. So please don't feel bad. Learn to look inside of yourself and find beauty. & Pray that you will find somebody. Because God has somebody set aside for you and he has a long amazing journey set aside for you. I'll be praying for you <3. Peace, love , happiness.- Amanda