In elementary school I was a really horrible person. I made up tons of lies and hurt a lot of people. I regret it so much, but I had to learn that I can't go back and change the past. The only thing I could control was the future, so I decided to change. I started to be nice to whoever I met. I started to smile at everyone and carry my head held high and just really try and give my effort into being a good person. I began to reach out to whoever I could to help them. I prayed and prayed and asked God to show me a sign of what kind of person I should be. He didn't give me a sign he caused things to happen in my life. Me being suicidal, drug issues in the family and being bullied. All of those things made me learn what it's like to have a broken heart. Because I've been through so much I can reach out to people and help them because I can relate. Being a nice person really helped me at first, it really helped me with my confidence, deciding on my major for college and I really just felt awesome. However, it hasn't always been easy. People do not appreciate what I do for them. I've had rumors spread about me, I've been made fun of, people think I'm " weird" because I post a lot about Jesus. When honestly, I just try and be the best person I can be. I do my best to be nice to everyone because I know what it's like to be treated like crap. It's terrible that a nice person like me get's a lot of hate in different directions from different kinds of people. I just try and love everyone like Jesus would. It is difficult being the nice girl but I wouldn't want it any other way. I know who I am as a person and that I have a very unique personality. I try not to let people's words or how they act towards me affect me. I know I'm a good girl and I deserve to be treated right. It just gets very draining at times. Putting my effort into so many people's lives when they want nothing to do with me. Sometimes I honestly believe that people could careless about me. But I keep in the back of my mind what would Jesus do. I live my life everyday for him and my number goal is to make another human being happy. So even If I don't get treated how I should, I am still going to continue to have a heart of gold and give back to as many people as I can. I will always be there for all of you, even if I don't get the respect back.
* Praying for all of you.
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