So for the past few years friends and family have told me I have a "Judging" problem.. honestly I didn't see it until tonight when I wrote a status and offended many people. When I think about when my judging started I believe it started in Church. I began going to church as a little girl, Loved it and appreciated everything I learned. Honestly though, there are some things that I wish I didn't. Judging is one of them. I honestly don't even know where to begin or where to even start. I guess I'm going to start of with saying that since I was a little girl I learned how to judge. I learned that if somebody has tattoo's from head to toe to not talk to them. I learned that if somebody drinks or smokes weed...don't hangout with them. I learned that premarital sex is an incredible "sin" and should not be committed. I learned that watching "R" movies is bad. I learned that saying "curse" words is bad. I learned that going to a "bar" is bad. I learned that "Gay" marriage should "not" be allowed....Honestly when I think of all of these things is this real life? Is this what church has come to ? I quickly learned that I have taken on all of this and started doing it myself. Tonight made me realize I am a very messed up human being. Not because my heart is mean, but because I judge people on the way they act or dress, or there choices. I didn't realize that until I made a status on facebook and many people commented on it.. I thought they were all crazy at first until it hit me that I really do judge. Church has taught me a lot of great things that I will remember and love for the rest of my life. As of right now though I am walking away. I am not walking away from my relationship with Jesus but I am walking away from Church itself. It has done more bad then good for me. I want to be able to be free and love everyone and be friends with the whole world. I feel like church holds me back from that. Recently I have learned people who smoke weed are fine. People do it because it helps them emotionally and physically. Recently I have learned that alcohol isn't bad and that drinking responsibly is normal. Recently I learned that almost everyone has premarital sex and that's okay. Sex is a normal response and if people want to have it its okay. As long as the people doing it are responsible about it, it's okay. I recently learned that going to a bar isn't bad because guess what? I went to one! SHOCKER . There's nothing wrong with going to a bar. You go with your friends, play pool, dance and order food. What's so bad about that? Recently I learned that curse words are just words. It's okay to say them, no they are not appropriate but I curse sometimes and guess what? GOD doesn't LOVE me any less. I recently learned that Gay marriage should be legal because it's there choice to be married and if there in love why would the Church want to take away love and happiness from anybody?.
What I have decided to do since this took a few hours of thinking is just step away from Church , read the Bible on my own and talk to God on my OWN and learn to love people for who they are and not what they've done or what they look like. Most importantly what I've learned though is that GOD LOVES EVERYONE who does all of these things. He loves them no matter what, he supports them and guides them and appreciates them because they are his children. Everybody deserves happiness and the right to make there own choices. I have decided today that I am going to stop judging, step away from the church and do my own soul searching within myself. Because it's exactly what I need to do.
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