Suicide-How I view the subject.

Robin Williams one of my very favorite actors passed away recently. I was scrolling through the web to notice what was trending and I saw his name. My heart sunk and shattered into pieces. How could this happen? Somebody so loved by the world? Somebody that touched so many lives. Why? I then read that he passed away from suicide. I became angry, Because I know what it feels like to want to die. Nobody should ever have to experience that pain, that dread , that exhaustion. But I know how he felt and it makes me sad that he felt that way. Some people in my life have said " Suicide is selfish" Because you leave your family and friends behind. I have completely different views. Suicide is not selfish. It is a choice that Is made because of the pain the person is experiencing. Imagine everyday waking up and going to work or school with a smile upon your face. Having to be happy but then when you go home laying on your bed crying your eyes out so angry at the world. That was me six years ago. I would come home from school and lie on the couch and just start crying. I'd ask my parents and beg them asking them if they could just let me stay home. I didn't want to go to school, I didn't want to hangout with friends. I wanted to be home in my own dark thoughts.  But that person wasn't who I was. I have such a happy, bubbly personality . I have such a big heart . But nobody knows the struggles I deal with. That's the point, Nobody knows what's really going on inside of everybody's minds. Everybody in the world is struggling with something. We just all have to learn to deal with it. Come up with different coping skills and find something we love to do. Suicide is an answer to a problem that the person is to terrified to reveal.. The person is so caught up in there thoughts and there pain, That the outside world and everybody involved doesn't matter. What matters is getting away. The person is usually at the end of there rope. They don't want to go on, There sick and tired of not feeling loved or feeling unworthy. Maybe not feeling accepted. Maybe a drug or alcohol problem Maybe there hearing voices. But the interesting part is that most suicides are due to problems in the person's life. Maybe within the family, money problems, friend problems, bullying. It's the people around them that cause this pain. My pain came from underlying problems within my family and friendships and with bullying. It was caused by what I was going through and what I was put through from other people in my life. That's why we have to be so cautious about what we say. We always have to lend a helping hand. We always have to love one another and remind each other that were there for each other. People always say " Don't blame your problems on other people" when in reality that may be true but we can blame the people in our life for causing us heartache. We can blame our parents divorce, Or our family member that treats us horribly , or drug and alcohol problems within the family, a bad bring up. We can blame all of  that because all of those things affect us. All of those things drag us down. So YES blame all of it. Because those things and people's ignorance and negativity usually cause somebody to commit suicide. LOVE ONE ANOTHER. Watch what you say, Treat everybody with respect and don't let the evil world or your family or your friends or drugs and alcohol bring you to being suicidal . If you feel that way talk to somebody. Do not be afraid. & If you see somebody who is showing the signs lend out a hand. Everything will be okay if we just fix these problems!! Robin Williams made me think of all of these thoughts. That's why I love him. Because he's another reason why I want to help people:) Have a good night everyone.