Three Teachers That Have Impacted My Life.

A lot of teachers have impacted my life over the years. I've had some bad ones, I've had some good ones. But there are three teachers that really taught me about life. Ms. Beam, Mr. Elder & Mr.Kealy. Let's start with Ms. Beam. My first day of sixth grade gym class I was freaking out I was so nervous. But really we just sat on the bleachers and waited for our name to be called for our uniform. Apparently, Ms. Beam called my name a bunch of times but I didn't hear her because I was talking with my friends. (whoops). At first I was scared of her. But as the time went on she impacted my life more than she'll ever know. I would come into gym class upset and she would talk to me about the problem  and she would try and help. She understood my problems and what I was going through at that time. She believed in me and she showed me she believed in me by being as nice as she was & She supported me.  She tried  to understand the drama I went through in middle school. She tried to understand me and I knew I could talk to her if I was getting bullied at school or if I had a bad day at home. I knew I could count on her. She was a great gym teacher and inspired me to be the nice person I am today. Mr.Elder I don't really remember how I met him. Because I know he was the guys middle school gym teacher. I'm pretty sure I met him at my 7th grade talent show. He Is a musician! I'm guessing talented, I've never really heard him sing or perform himself. But he heard something in my voice he loved. He told me I was really good. He inspired me to continue to go with music. He inspired me to never ever give up with it and to follow my heart. He also inspired me to pick up a guitar and learn. Than when 8th grade came I got a guitar for my birthday and learned how to play. He believed in my music so much he gave me his guitar to play for my 8th grade talent show night. He showed me that there are nice teachers out there and I'll never forget him ever. He was also my health teacher and hearing his stories about suicide and drugs and everything else it just made me feel like he understood where I was coming from with my depression. He actually heard I was suicidal and reported it and honestly he probably changed my life from that moment on. He was a great teacher, Somebody I'll always remember. Now were onto my last teacher. Mr. Kealy. I don't even know what to say. He impacted my life probably the most out of anybody. He picked me to be football manager. He encouraged me to do field day when I had so much anxiety I didn't want too. He talked to me about my gym grade and told me what I needed to do to bring it up. He really inspired me to keep going. I probably wouldn't have been able to get through gym class if it wasn't for him. Because he pushed me to be a better person physically and mentally. He made me come out of my comfort zone. Out of my shell and my anxiety and he pushed me because he knew I could accomplish anything. I heard he teaches at the high school now. He is a teacher I'll always remember . I'll always remember Ms. Beam, Mr. Elder & Mr. Kealy. They were gym teachers at William Penn Middle School. & I will never forget either of them. They were the only teachers that made me into who I was . I'll take there encouragement with me always & I'll always believe in myself because I know they believed in me and they probably still do. I am blessed to have been able to have met them. Be thankful for who you come across. There's always a reason why you meet somebody even if it's for a year- or two years. Cherish every moment.:) Have a good night!

How a Guy Should Treat A Girl....

When I meet a guy I usually notice three things. 1. Does he Shake my Hand when he introduces himself  2. Does he hold doors open for girls. 3. Does he have maturity and respect ( Meaning he doesn't make fun of others and he acts like an adult in public). All of those things attract me . Those are the three things I want to see when I have a first introduction with a guy. So far, I haven't met one that has met those three strong qualities I look for. But I know I will. A Guy should treat a girl like a princess. I'm not saying go all out and buy her tons of jewelry or flowers . What I mean by that is, A Guy should be there for the women he loves. If she is going through a hard time he should tell her everything's going to be okay. He should pray with her or bring home her favorite food. He could even do something simple as like doing the dishes after dinner. A Guy should also RESPECT his girlfriend/wife. What I mean by that is there should be no name calling. If she get's on your nerves or your arguing about something . The best thing you can do would be walk away from the situation and go for a drive and then come back in an hour and hug her and tell her you love her. You should hold the door open for her, You should call her beautiful. You should also respect her family. Respect what her family wants out of you and out of life. A Big one is  Always respect Dad & Mom.  If you respect her parents that means you respect her. & Never check out other girls in public. If you really love the women your with. You will never have to look at another women again. You'll only have eyes for the one your with. Show her off. Bring her to every family event and friend gathering. Bring her to your favorite places. Be funny ( Sometimes we need a good laugh). Another big one is respect her tv time. There's just sometimes where we want to watch our shows just like you want to watch your sports. So give us that time. Sometimes we get cranky ( Yes I know, it's bad). Sometimes were an emotional wreck where we cry over everything. In those times the best thing you could do would bring home some ice cream or some chocolate and sit down and cuddle with her, put on her favorite movie and tell her to relax. Another thing is always practice good hygiene. That's a big thing for women . We always want a guy to look nice and clean cut. I know this is asking for a lot but I'm pretty sure you ask a lot out of us as well. The best thing would be to do these things for her. & If you do these things the women you love will respect you and give back what she has received from you. I've seen great marriages in my family and the ones that have lasted so long were because of the man. If a Man is who he is and does what he's supposed to do as a husband/boyfriend. Nothing will fail because you will always keep her happy. & I guarantee she will always try and keep you happy if you make her happy. Being in a relationship is a big commitment . I'm not there yet, because I haven't found "him" yet or even somebody I want to be my boyfriend.  But what I can tell you is there's somebody out there for all of us. Love does exist ( I've seen it). & The most important thing is you should be in love with your best friend. But if you want to receive this kind of love from a guy. The number 1 thing you could do would be to respect your body & yourself. If you don't respect yourself your going to attract the wrong guys. There are good guys out there, but usually they look for something specific in somebody. So be that somebody. Be a "nice girl". & Don't give up because there's love out there for all of us. Were all still young experiencing parties, and college, & work. So the best thing we could all do would be the best person we could be. & If we do that than the right person will come along at the right time:)

Suicide-How I view the subject.

Robin Williams one of my very favorite actors passed away recently. I was scrolling through the web to notice what was trending and I saw his name. My heart sunk and shattered into pieces. How could this happen? Somebody so loved by the world? Somebody that touched so many lives. Why? I then read that he passed away from suicide. I became angry, Because I know what it feels like to want to die. Nobody should ever have to experience that pain, that dread , that exhaustion. But I know how he felt and it makes me sad that he felt that way. Some people in my life have said " Suicide is selfish" Because you leave your family and friends behind. I have completely different views. Suicide is not selfish. It is a choice that Is made because of the pain the person is experiencing. Imagine everyday waking up and going to work or school with a smile upon your face. Having to be happy but then when you go home laying on your bed crying your eyes out so angry at the world. That was me six years ago. I would come home from school and lie on the couch and just start crying. I'd ask my parents and beg them asking them if they could just let me stay home. I didn't want to go to school, I didn't want to hangout with friends. I wanted to be home in my own dark thoughts.  But that person wasn't who I was. I have such a happy, bubbly personality . I have such a big heart . But nobody knows the struggles I deal with. That's the point, Nobody knows what's really going on inside of everybody's minds. Everybody in the world is struggling with something. We just all have to learn to deal with it. Come up with different coping skills and find something we love to do. Suicide is an answer to a problem that the person is to terrified to reveal.. The person is so caught up in there thoughts and there pain, That the outside world and everybody involved doesn't matter. What matters is getting away. The person is usually at the end of there rope. They don't want to go on, There sick and tired of not feeling loved or feeling unworthy. Maybe not feeling accepted. Maybe a drug or alcohol problem Maybe there hearing voices. But the interesting part is that most suicides are due to problems in the person's life. Maybe within the family, money problems, friend problems, bullying. It's the people around them that cause this pain. My pain came from underlying problems within my family and friendships and with bullying. It was caused by what I was going through and what I was put through from other people in my life. That's why we have to be so cautious about what we say. We always have to lend a helping hand. We always have to love one another and remind each other that were there for each other. People always say " Don't blame your problems on other people" when in reality that may be true but we can blame the people in our life for causing us heartache. We can blame our parents divorce, Or our family member that treats us horribly , or drug and alcohol problems within the family, a bad bring up. We can blame all of  that because all of those things affect us. All of those things drag us down. So YES blame all of it. Because those things and people's ignorance and negativity usually cause somebody to commit suicide. LOVE ONE ANOTHER. Watch what you say, Treat everybody with respect and don't let the evil world or your family or your friends or drugs and alcohol bring you to being suicidal . If you feel that way talk to somebody. Do not be afraid. & If you see somebody who is showing the signs lend out a hand. Everything will be okay if we just fix these problems!! Robin Williams made me think of all of these thoughts. That's why I love him. Because he's another reason why I want to help people:) Have a good night everyone.

My New Job & The anxiety I'm dealing with.

So recently I got a new job at a  new Shoprite in Yardley PA. To  be honest I don't have that much "Job experience". I worked on my families farm off and on for about two years. I ran the register, went into the fields and just did whatever I could to get some experience. I decided to leave the farm because I wanted to go on my own path. Search for my own destiny. I knew I didn't want to be apart of the farm forever.  Than my second Job was at a daycare. I changed diapers, played with the kids and cleaned bathrooms pretty much..  I left the daycare Job because I wanted something more professional. I wanted to work for a real company. A company where I could get benefits and other special things and I wanted to expand my experience. I loved the kids. I loved seeing them and being with them. But I really wanted to work in a good solid company. So I chose Shoprite. My first interview I was nervous but I acted completely like myself. I applied for a Scrunchy Position. The Scrunchy position is child care in the store. Parents can take there children to Scrunchy's Playhouse and there children can be watched while they go shopping within the store. But the position filled up and they didn't have it available anymore. So they decided to put me in produce. I had to do an Orientation, WBT training ( Web based Training). Food Safety Training & Clerk Training & Cashier Training. I got to tell you it was exhausting. I was overwhelmed with all of the information I had to learn in such a short time. My Anxiety got the best of me. I began coming home and crying my eyes out and Praying to God that this Job would get easier. I officially started my live training in Philadelphia. It was hard, Learning how to use a knife properly cutting every kind of fruit and vegetable imaginable and using this giant machine called a Pineapple corer. Not to mention getting the salad bar ready! I'm not going to lie to you, My anxiety was so bad I thought I was going to pass out. But I stayed cool, Stayed myself and just tried my best. People think Produce is super easy. But it's not there's a lot to it. But once you get all of the information you need and practice it will become a piece of cake. Shoprite is a great company and I am so happy this company hired me. People may say..Oh it's just a Grocery store. But it's more than that. It's a family. It's an opportunity. A lot of the managers started out small and worked there way up. There's endless possibilities within this store and with this Job that I'm taking it and I'm going to work my butt off and try my best. I believe this Job was given to me by the Lord. I believe this was his plan for me. I asked him for a Job to come my way and here it is! If you feel hopeless about God's plan trust in him, Seek him and try your best. You never know what he will show you! I still don't know the rest of my future plan . But I do know he got me this far & I am more than happy he has been there when I've fallen . My anxiety has gotten better these last few weeks and I couldn't be happier with how things have been going<3. & No I'm not saying it's going to be perfect but I know God is here with me<3. I'll be praying for all of you! Don't give up!